Still Phil Collins but instead of "I Don't Care Anymore" now it is "Take Me Home".

Back in October I had become very frustrated with the process of trying to lose weight.  I've spent a lot of time, money and focus on losing the weight with very little to show for it.

Oh, was I pissed.

I continued on with my diet "experiments" to find what was true for me nutritionally, supplementally and spiritually.  I continued on with my trainer at the gym.  Since October I've continued to eat 5 meals a day and 4 of them were dead-solid-perfect and the fifth?  Well, it was whatever I wanted it to be.

Everything went along just as before, no problems, no real weight gain, no nothin' to report.  It seemed for several months that not giving a damn was exactly the way to go.  Same results, less trouble.

Then in February I had about 4 weeks of back to back illness and a lower back injury (not from the gym) that shot my weight way back up.  Higher up than when I had started back on June 12, 2006.  Measurements back then put me at 378 lbs. at 49% body fat.  That is about 185 lbs. of pure lard and about 192 lbs. of lean, manly, macho, muscle mass.

I worked like a demon for two years and made some progress to 350 at 39.5% body fat.  Then I quit back in October.

Today I begin again.  The wisdom of this blog was shoved in my face recently.  I had to justify why I believed some of those things that seem odd in the world of fitness and nutrition and about my psychology.  This blog, it turned out, was so completely instrumental in keeping me aware of changes and evolution.  So, today, I begin again.

Today I weigh in at 375.2 lbs. and 41.5% body fat.  Two weeks ago I topped out (for my entire life) at 386 lbs.
Today's lean mass is 220 lbs. (up about 30 lbs. from two years ago, maintained very nicely, thank you very much...).
Today's fat mass is 155 lbs. That is 30 lbs. less than two years ago, maintained very nicely, thank you very much...).

My goal is to achieve 15% body fat in one year's time, to do that my I must lose 117 lbs. of fat.

117lbs. of fat/12 months is 9.75 lbs. of fat per month, 2.44 lbs. of fat per week.

Sorry, Phil, but I have to care again, even if it is against all odds.  There is just something in the air tonight that compels me.  We can't dance so ill get cardio by jogging, and in other ways, too - do you remember?  Perhaps I'll yell, "Sussudio"  as I wish it would rain down, who knows?

And, for putting up with that last paragraph, you'll be in my heart...

Now, THAT was painful...