What the Fork Was I Thinking?
Not a stellar week but progress nonetheless...
I did something new and odd yesterday: I punished myself with food. My goal with food always been very powerful and consistent: FEEL BETTER.
Food is good, yeah, yeah, food is great, yeah, yeah,
What if food was one of us? Just a hogie on a bus...
Thanks to the coaching and Anthony Robbins materials I have been able to identify and begin to move through my binge-eating disorder. I recognize the motivations behind the actions and for several years I have made good progress. Two years ago I began chronicling my weight loss on the Real Solutions BB and quickly realized just how bi-polar my emotions around the diet end of this was.
One week I was doing great and the next week I would write about eating a slab of ribs in a parking lot at 10 in the morning. Up and down, up and down, down and down and up and down, ad nauseum. I recently went back and, with some embarrassment, read the log - all of it. It became very obvious over several months that I wasn't getting it done, I wasn't on a "Biggest Loser" path of losing 100 lbs. in 9 months or whatever it is that they do.
I was growing some spiritual muscle, learning how to work and push myself in the gym and for the first time in my life the inevitability of reaching my goals was obvious to me. If it wasn't for that time and toil, today's success would not have been possible. That inevitability of reaching my goals was indeed so powerful and present in my life then.
It still is.
Yesterday I had a small binge episode. I say small because even though I ate all the wrong stuff, it only put me 600 calories over my daily budget of 1800. I weighed myself today and I have still lost 2.5 pounds of fat this week and put on almost a pound of muscle. Its hard to get too upset.
So, this morning I woke up, I weighed and took my body fat measure, then scarfed down a cottage cheese and grapes breakfast.
Good WEEK!
Housekeeping:
LAST WEEK:
Weight: 364.6 lbs.
Body Fat%: 40.6%
Body Fat Weight: 148.03 lbs.
Lean Muscle Mass: 216.57 lbs.
At 15% bf, my goal weight is 254.79 lbs.
BMI: 49.4
Body Fat to Lose: 109.81 lbs.
THIS WEEK:
Weight: 362.8 lbs.
Body Fat%: 40.1%
Body Fat Weight: 145.48 lbs. Down 2.5
Lean Muscle Mass: 217.32 lbs. UP .8
At 15% bf, my goal weight is 255.67 lbs.
BMI: 49.2
Body Fat to Lose: 107.31 lbs. DOWN 2.0 lbs.
I did something new and odd yesterday: I punished myself with food. My goal with food always been very powerful and consistent: FEEL BETTER.
Food is good, yeah, yeah, food is great, yeah, yeah,
What if food was one of us? Just a hogie on a bus...
Thanks to the coaching and Anthony Robbins materials I have been able to identify and begin to move through my binge-eating disorder. I recognize the motivations behind the actions and for several years I have made good progress. Two years ago I began chronicling my weight loss on the Real Solutions BB and quickly realized just how bi-polar my emotions around the diet end of this was.
One week I was doing great and the next week I would write about eating a slab of ribs in a parking lot at 10 in the morning. Up and down, up and down, down and down and up and down, ad nauseum. I recently went back and, with some embarrassment, read the log - all of it. It became very obvious over several months that I wasn't getting it done, I wasn't on a "Biggest Loser" path of losing 100 lbs. in 9 months or whatever it is that they do.
I was growing some spiritual muscle, learning how to work and push myself in the gym and for the first time in my life the inevitability of reaching my goals was obvious to me. If it wasn't for that time and toil, today's success would not have been possible. That inevitability of reaching my goals was indeed so powerful and present in my life then.
It still is.
Yesterday I had a small binge episode. I say small because even though I ate all the wrong stuff, it only put me 600 calories over my daily budget of 1800. I weighed myself today and I have still lost 2.5 pounds of fat this week and put on almost a pound of muscle. Its hard to get too upset.
So, this morning I woke up, I weighed and took my body fat measure, then scarfed down a cottage cheese and grapes breakfast.
Good WEEK!
Housekeeping:
Weight: 364.6 lbs.
Body Fat%: 40.6%
Body Fat Weight: 148.03 lbs.
Lean Muscle Mass: 216.57 lbs.
At 15% bf, my goal weight is 254.79 lbs.
BMI: 49.4
Body Fat to Lose: 109.81 lbs.
THIS WEEK:
Weight: 362.8 lbs.
Body Fat%: 40.1%
Body Fat Weight: 145.48 lbs. Down 2.5
Lean Muscle Mass: 217.32 lbs. UP .8
At 15% bf, my goal weight is 255.67 lbs.
BMI: 49.2
Body Fat to Lose: 107.31 lbs. DOWN 2.0 lbs.
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